The world is ending, relax.

Have you not heard gazza this fookin vaccines killin footie players left and right with heart attacks, defo not safe lad think about it if it's killing professional athletes imagine how bad it'd fook you up.

There is one point I want to put forward then I'm going to focus purely on stats, professional athletes are on PEDs and regularly push themselves to the extreme, they're not a shining bastion of health

All the stats are sourced from here though I'm going to leave out some cardiac events and heart attacks based on how confident it seems – before you go huffing and puffing about integrity this means my number are if any underreporting up until the year vaccines started becoming widespread (2020) for 2020 I'm going to count absolutely everything that might have been, this way every pre-vaccine heart issues are underreported and 2020 is overreported to add strength to my point whilst also strengthening the view that vaccines are to blame.

Starting from 1950 (it's worth noting as time increases you would expect to see an increase in deaths due to an increase in players)

Decade Total Heart related Percentage
1950-1959 2 1 50%
1960-1969 3 1 33%
1970-1979 6 3 50%
1980-1989 9 4 44%
1990-1999 12 6 50%
2000-2010 48 13 27%

Now since we're closer to our point of interest I'm going to break down the past five years (roughly) 2016-2021

Year Total Heart related Percentage
2016 13 9 69%
2017 11 5 45%
2018 9 4 44%
2019 10 5 50%
2020 3 2 66%
2021 21 10 47%

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  • Have you ever wondered why some people seem to find it easier to get through life than others? Or, why some people are far healthier and enjoy more success?
  • If so, you've probably thought at least once that such people were just “born under a lucky star.” But have you ever considered that perhaps their good fortune is the result of their optimistic outlook on life?
  • Learned  Optimism  is about exactly this phenomenon. Its author, Martin Seligman, is considered the father of the positive  psychology  movement, a movement which began with Seligman's studies of, what he called, “learned helplessness.”


  • Explanatory style refers to the way in which we explain the negative events of our lives to ourselves : optimistically or pessimistically.
    • pessimists consider problems to be permanent, while optimists consider them only temporary.
    • Second, where optimists think of problems as being specific to a certain situation, pessimists tend to generalize.
  • if a pessimistic student believes that the bad grade they received is unjustified, they might go on to think of grades as unfair in general. Consequently, they might find it a lot harder to study for their next exam.
  • while optimists tend to consider negative events as being externally caused, and positive events as internally caused, pessimists usually think of these the other way around.
  • the ways in which optimists and pessimists make sense of bad events are not set in stone: all three behavioral patterns can be changed.
  • Our explanatory style derives from our individual experience. Depending on our life experiences, we become either pessimists, believing we have no control over our fate, or optimists, feeling a sense of control over our destinies.
  • The most important takeaway is that, since our explanatory style is learned, we can change the way we “talk” to ourselves: even if you’ve acquired a pessimistic style in childhood, you're not condemned to use it forever.
  • Self talk is often unconscious
  • While it's difficult to ascertain which of our beliefs are “true,” it's clear that how we think about negative events greatly influences how they affect us.
  • imagine you're faced with an adverse situation at work – say you're calling a customer repeatedly and they don't pick up the phone. You believe that the customer is probably too busy to answer. The consequence is that you decide to simply leave a message and try again tomorrow.
  • However, with a different belief, the same adverse situation can have a very different result. For example, after calling for the fifth time, you believe that the customer is probably screening your calls because they don't want to do business with you. The consequence of this belief is that you feel defeated and unworthy, and might decide to quit trying to reach them altogether.

experiments & facts

  • Seligman administered electric shocks to dogs. Some of these canine subjects had the ability to put an end to the shocks by touching a button with their nose, while others couldn't stop the shocks no matter what they did.
    • What fascinated Seligman was that the dogs who couldn’t change their fate in this experiment would later also not even attempt to do anything about their situation when they actually could. Instead, they would simply lay there, apparently defeated.
  • While it is quite normal for people to feel helpless in a situation of defeat, one thing makes the helplessness stick, or enables us to “shrug off” the situation and move on: our so-called explanatory style.
  • The positive effects of an optimistic outlook are far greater than most of us assume. For instance, compared with their pessimistic peers, optimists are generally healthier.
    • Firstly, on a cellular level, optimists often have a stronger immune system. For example, studies that induced a state of inescapable helplessness in rats have shown that their immune systems produce fewer T-cells – cells that are crucial to immune system response.
    • Other studies have shown that changing our explanatory style, and the relief from the feeling of helplessness that this provides, can even enhance the immune system of cancer patients.
    • Secondly, because optimists tend to be more active than pessimists, they're more likely to take good care of themselves.
    • This is because optimists believe that their actions have a positive effect, so they're more likely to adhere to a health care regimen
    • Also, optimists encounter fewer negative life events than pessimists do, a phenomenon that researchers explain in terms of a pessimist’s passivity due to their conviction that they can't change anything
    • Thirdly, optimistic people find it easier to sustain friendships, and friendship is beneficial to our health. This is because having a friend that you can confide in and discuss anything and everything with actually eases the stress generated by negative life events.
    • So when you're going through a rough patch, confiding in someone who is close to you can help immensely. Often, because such people know us so well, they'll have insightful, useful ideas about what we can do to improve our situation.
  • In the human study, subjects were placed in a room, and given a panel with several buttons. The room was then filled with noise, and the subjects were given the task of stopping the noise by pressing the panel's buttons.
    • However, the experiment was rigged for some of the subjects: no matter which buttons they pressed, the noise wouldn't stop.
    • these particular subjects learned to be helpless in this situation, and after the experiment was over they showed symptoms of depression.
  • One area where this is particularly true is competitive sports. Given two teams that are equal in every other respect, the optimistic team will always outperform the pessimistic team, especially after a prior defeat.
    • Another example of the powerful influence of optimism on performance can be seen in the 1987 Berkeley swim team. The optimistic swimmers in the team performed better after failure than the pessimistic swimmers.
  • In one experiment, two groups of children – one optimistic, the other pessimistic – were given solvable math problems. In this first trial, both groups perform equally well.
    • In a second trial, however, the math problems are switched for unsolvable  ones.
    • The pessimistic children gave up, refusing to continue with the task. In contrast, the optimistic children, while aware that they were making mistakes, continued in their efforts to solve the problems by using their existing strategies.
  • As Seligman’s research shows, aptitude or talent is not sufficient to predict professional success, particularly in fields where one encounters a lot of setbacks. Therefore, he suggests selecting personnel for three main characteristics: motivation, aptitude and, of course, optimism.


  • One particularly effective way of handling negative self-talk is the so-called ABC technique, developed by the psychologist Albert Ellis. This technique involves three steps: adversity, belief and consequence.
    • ADVERSITY: A love interest doesn't return your phone calls.
    • BELIEF: He or she doesn't like me. My jokes are not funny. I'm ugly.
    • CONSEQUENCE: You feel depressed all day.
    • you should try to listen to your self talk and find at least five ABCs, so you can observe their negative effect on your life.
  • Our beliefs about a situation will determine both its consequences and how we feel about the situation. So, by changing our beliefs, we also change these consequences and our feelings.

  • The first way is disputation, which works on a deep level to transform your negative beliefs. Disputing your beliefs involves testing every belief in terms of the following four questions:

    • Is the belief actually true? If so, what evidence is there? For example, if one client doesn't buy from you, does this really mean that you're bad at your job? If you answer “yes,” then how can you explain the successful sales you’ve made this week?
    • Is there an alternative explanation? Here, you should focus on the specific, changeable and impersonal causes. For example, if your colleagues suddenly stop talking the moment you entered the office, is it actually because they were talking about you behind your back? Is it possible they were talking about something else entirely?
    • What are the implications of your belief, if it were true? How probable are these implications, and are they really that bad?
    • Finally, ask yourself: is what I’m thinking useful to me? If a thought isn't useful, can you simply let it go and focus instead on how to change the situation next time around?
  • Once you have practiced this method of disputing your beliefs, you can then move on to the second way: externalizing the voices.

    • For this, you need to get a close friend to do the exercise with you and to attack you as viciously as you do yourself, using all your own negative self-beliefs. Your task is to defend yourself against these attacks by verbalizing your defense out loud.

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  • the ancient Greek philosopher Epicurus believed the secret was simpler than you might think: we should aim to seek pleasure and avoid pain.
  • These days, when people think of Epicureanism, they tend to imagine scenes of luxury – an aristocrat, perhaps, in his wine cellar, or a gourmand tucking into a generous dinner. Epicureanism often just means pleasurable, hedonistic high living, with a weirdly strong emphasis on food and drink.


  • the ancient Greek philosopher Epicurus emphasized the importance of pleasure. And so did his most influential follower, the Roman poet and philosopher Lucretius. But they also acknowledged this was complex. Too much pleasure today, for instance, can lead to pain later on
  • What should you do with your life? For Epicurus, this question is about choice and avoidance. Put simply, we should choose pleasure and avoid pain. Our desire to do that is natural – and nature, for Epicurus, is the most important force of all.
    • Too much pleasure can end up having the opposite effect, though – just think of a hangover. That’s why Epicurus’s advice is to act prudently – with an awareness of how much pleasure and pain your actions will cause in the long term, as well as right now.


  • The Marquis de Sade claimed to be an Epicurean; he said he was following nature by seeking his own pleasure – which just so happened to involve torturing people. But this overlooks a hugely important part of Epicurus’s teachings: that we must act according to moral conventions.
    • Kindness, Epicurus said, usually comes naturally to people. But he also saw how much could be gained through torture, theft, or murder – and people’s nature, unfortunately, is sometimes drawn in that direction. So, he believed in human-made laws and institutions. Even though they’re not naturally occurring, laws are needed to prevent a descent into chaos.
  • Because they aren’t natural, moral conventions change over time, and systems are often hugely flawed – the author points to the American criminal justice system, for example. But despite all that, law is an artificial invention that we badly need, so that – for the most part – we can go on living our pleasurable lives.


  • The ancient Epicureans believed that, long ago, atoms happened to form many animals – far more than exist today. But only some survived: the ones that had the most useful features, like speed or intelligence. In other words, there was no divine force behind the creation of the natural world around us – a belief that was widely ridiculed for centuries.
  • Epicureanism was the only ancient philosophical school that women were allowed to join, and were treated as equals – another way in which Epicurean thinking seems impressively modern when we study it today.
  • Not that every relationship is between a man and a woman. A modern Epicurean perspective on homosexuality is accepting. Of course, banning such relationships causes enormous pain. And there’s nothing objectionable about any relationship, as long as it’s conducted prudently and morally, with no harm caused to anyone else.


  • Take an empirical approach toward religious beliefs, and they start to look unlikely. The author even suggests we have a moral responsibility to disagree with the claim that there’s a god or gods watching over us all, sorting everything out.
  • Not all aspects of religion are at odds with Epicurean values, though. Some religious communities do charity work, and many religious teachings encourage good morals. However, there’s a superstitious aspect to religion that doesn’t fit with the rational Epicurean perspective.


  • Stoicism. It’s enjoyed an upsurge in popularity recently. But life for the Stoic is perhaps not as enjoyable as it is for the Epicurean.
  • The Epicureans’ ancient rivals, the Stoics, had some dark views about passion – they likened it to a disease. But for an Epicurean, passion should be embraced. And besides, even if passion is like a disease, aren’t diseases part of nature? Surely they’re inevitable from time to time.
  • We’ve already mentioned that the Stoics frown on emotions, calling them “diseases.” But an Epicurean embraces emotion as something natural – what could be more natural than feeling, and wanting to feel, pleasure?
    • A Stoic might reply that it’s selfish to want a pleasurable life. Shouldn’t we live a life that’s not just enjoyable, but meaningful? The Epicurean answer to this questions what the word “meaningful” really means in this context.


  • Human life has a natural limit, just like everything else in the universe, whether living or inanimate. And once that limit is reached, we should accept it. Death in old age should not cause sorrow, so long as the person has lived a happy life. It’s all just part of nature.
  • Epicureanism distinguishes between nature and convention. Natural things simply are as they are, and there’s nothing we can do to change them. But conventional things could be one way or another, so they’re changeable – and sometimes we ourselves can change them.
    • The distinction between nature and convention is at the heart of Epicureanism.
    • That distinction means that there are three categories of things in the world. First, there are indestructible things – those are just atoms. Second, there are natural things like plants, animals, and stars. And third, there are conventional things, which we’ve made. That category includes objects like clocks and driving licenses, and concepts like royalty and money.
    • While conventional things may be physical objects, their meaning depends on context. Imagine a pound coin somehow turned up in ancient Assyria. It wouldn’t actually be a pound coin, because nobody would be able to use it as one. Similarly, if Queen Victoria was there, she wouldn’t be a queen.
    • modern-day Epicureans believe that human rights are conventions – even though many other philosophies say they’re natural. An Epicurean would point out that, if rights were natural, there would be no need for people to discuss and debate them at length; we would simply be able to observe them.
  • If you see your neighbor’s house burn down, you should believe it happened. If someone else tells you it happened, ask yourself: Do you accept they’re in a position to know about it, and they don’t want to trick you? If the evidence adds up, believe them.
  • the Epicurean believes that a life can be well-lived, even if your awards cabinet is empty and you’ve never won a war. You can live a meaningful human life simply by doing what you do and loving those close to you.

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Here’s a question: Is there an evolutionary advantage to being kind? 

Our guest today is Dacher Keltner, an eminent scientist who will make the case that, contrary to popular conceptions of evolution (dog-eat-dog, survival of the fittest), and contrary to a lot of what we see on the news, our species is actually uniquely wired for kindness and compassion.

Dacher Keltner is the Director of the Social Interaction Lab at the University of California at Berkeley, the Faculty Director of the Berkeley Greater Good Science Center, and the author of the book Born to Be Good: The Science of a Meaningful Life. 

In this episode, we talk about Darwin’s perspective on human sympathy and selfishness, where he stands on the question of Original Sin versus Buddha Nature, the importance of touch when it comes to communicating compassion, and the relationship between teasing and kindness. 

We are bringing you this Ten Percent Happier podcast series in collaboration with the Apple TV+ Original Series Ted Lasso because k –> Podcast Link


  • Author of book “Born to be good”
  • Tries to dismiss the idea “nice guys finish last”
  • “transformation” showing kindness has become more desired in society, in leadership and in parental and social contexts
  • Darwin claims sympathy is a very useful tool and is incredibly important for thriving societies
    • “survival of the fittest” often misunderstood
  • Homosapiens became the apex predator not due to our ability but our cooperation
  • Joesph henrich “we share 40% of resources with a stranger”
  • Micheal tommosello “18 month olds will try to help and empathize with others”
  • Data shows “outrage” brings about social good not just for the group but yourself i.e protests
    • This also improves with pro-social tendencies
  • With kindness there are gender issues (men seem to be more aggressive and manipulative, women seem to be more cooperative and less confrontational)
  • Kindness =/= being exploited
  • Broad review looking at how social movements gain power
    • People seeking change should feel anger but not rage
  • Original sin (humans want to sin) vs buddha nature (essentially good)
    • dali lama “compassion is our natural state”
    • primitive parts of brain activate when see signs of human suffering
    • oxytocin leads to you being more generous
    • vagus nerve engages when we feel compassion
    • parts of your brain light up when we give things away
    • seems to be 45/55 sin/buddha
  • Compassion is a skill that can be trained through meditation
  • Seems to be positive movement socially (womens rights, lgbt issues, race issues)
  • Awe is very important and can be observed in chimps
    • Studies show is “awe” is shared with strangers you're more compassionate with them.
    • The environment is the biggest source of awe
  • Laughter & play
    • Play is one of the deepest thing mammals have evolved, dogs, rats, birds all play
    • Teasing, joking, comedy
    • “how do you know you're falling in love?” teasing, laughing together etc
  • “one of the things in finding more happiness is confrontation and conflict”
  • People who're really kind or empathetic seem to not be as corruptible by power
    • Power reveals

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If they were to cut open my bloated corpse they would find nothing but cookies – I am no more in control of my actions than a man with a gun to his head, truly mans most self destructive behavior is the reinforcement of the mass delusion that is control, we are no more in control of our actions than a plant is in control of growing towards the sun, but at some point in our history we saw hands in front of us on a steering wheel and assumed they belonged to us because sometimes they move when we tell them to. We completely disregard all the times we tell them to move and they remain stationary or the times they turn according to their own desires.

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The past

In the past I've journalled in a very specific and rigid way on a very regular basis, however covid saw that habit change and pretty much disappear, this has given me enough of a break from it to re-evaluate and I've reached the conclusion I'm going to change how I journal

Digital Journal

Firstly I went digital, using obsidian, having templates, the ability to search, plugins to encrypt information, internote linking etc makes the journal entries much more usable – but in this “journal” I mostly use it for bullet points, a quick rundown of the day a chronology. Then I will also use other templates as/when needed I will include the templates below.

Daily template

# Journal
## morning
- [ ] Something you're grateful for
- [ ] Go over yesterdays note (if applicable)
## afternoon
## evening
- [ ] A nice memory
- [ ] meditation

[[month-21]] #month #journal 

Work template (based on newports idea of deep work)

# Work Start
#### How do you feel?

#### What do you plan to do today?

#### Why do you want to do these things?

#### What might get in your way?

#### How can you overcome this?

# Work End
#### Did you do good enough today?

#### What did you do?

#### What helped you?

#### What hurt you?

#### How do you feel?

#### How do you plan to rest tonight?

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#<% moment().format("MMMM") %>

Stressed template

# Stressed

**List things making you stressed:**

*Highlight the most important*

**What can you do about it?**

**Is there anyone you can talk to about it?**

**Why are these things making you stressed?**

**What do you think you should do?**

**What was the outcome?**

[[<% moment().format("DD-MM-YY") %>]]
#<% moment().format("MMMM") %>

How it's used

I use plugins to create new notes with both work and stressed templates then insert a link to those notes in the daily note, this is all a hands off process and since they're separate notes in separate folders it keeps everything free from clutter and organized.

The structure

  • Journal/
    • 00-Events/
      • 2021/
    • 00-work/
      • 2021/
    • January-21/

Physical Journal

My physical journal will be used more for long form thoughts and feelings about life, mine and others. A more sort of decompression, I'll carry it wherever but will think before writing in it, the format and structure will be simple, on the front will be month-year month-year so I know when it was start and when it was full, inside it'll just use a title and month on each entry, anything more granular gets lost in the pages anyway, if I need to know specific things about a specific date then I should just ctrl+f my digital journal, if I want to reflect then dates aren't nearly as important and neither is a chronology of what you did on that day.

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This episode I describe how we see, meaning how our eyes focus, convert light information into electricity the rest of the brain can understand and how our brain creates the incredible thing we experience as “sight”. –> Podcast Link


  • Get exposure to sunlight in the morning and evening (in winter consider blue light lamps)
  • Several studies in thousands of people as to how to stop myopia (near sighted-ness)
    • 2 hours outside has significant chance of reducing risk of myopia
    • could be caused by looking at things at a distance
    • also seems to relate to sunlight
    • does not work through windows
  • holding visual focus may help you hold mental focus
  • accommodation is the ability to focus on close and far objects
    • looking at things far away is relaxing due to flattening
    • healthy eyes dilate when looking at things far away
    • you need to look at things up close and far away
  • look at things far away on a regular basis ideally not through a window
    • every 30 minutes of close work allow eyes to unfocus and face to relax
    • every 90 minutes look at something far away and allow eyes to relax (panoramic vision)
  • Self generated optic flow
    • visions moving past as body moves through physical space
    • not motorized vehicles
    • bicycles and running work
  • Looking up promotes wakefulness (10-15s)
  • Sleep in a very dark room
  • Spend 10 minutes a day looking at things at least 1KM away
  • Smooth pursuit training (youtube videos, bird watching, car watching)
  • Snellen chart improves vision if you try it on a regular basis

#podcastnotes #hubermanlab

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I was not, I was, I am not, I do not care: In theory this is fine, in practice I find myself lost in thoughts of the loss of experience, not mourning the universe without my existence in it but a sort of fomo in which I can think of experiences I want to have but will never, it’s easy to get lost in these thoughts but the only things you can do are wallow in the lack of theoretical experiences or focus on the experiences you can have.

Considering the absolute diversity of experience the universe offers us not just internally but externally it seems nothing short of choosing to be miserable to allow yourself to be caught up in the experiences you won’t have for more than a moment.

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My entire life I've heard over and over again “live each day as if it's your last” what stupid, thoughtless and destructive mindset is that, if I live each day as if it's my last I'm taking drugs and banging escorts until I curl up in a ball and die from either exhaustion or dehydration.

I think If you want your life to be good you must live by the opposite, which I am coining “live each day as if you'll live forever” now for a fun easy thought experiment we're going to change reality a bit.

Right now a god appears in front of you and tells you that you'll live forever, you can still get sick, get ill, get injured but you can never die of old age, sickness, illness or anything like that. If you get cancer you will never die from it but it can destroy you in the same way it does others just without the eventual fatality; Being overweight will never kill you, but you'll still get out of breath easily, have chronic pain and other related outcomes. Now what kind of choices do you think you'd make? would you exercise? eat better? avoid known cancer causing compounds? what about your friends, would living forever change how you treated them? what about knowing you'll outlive every family member would you save any negative feelings you have for them till after they've died? I mean you'll literally have all the time to hate them once they're gone right? What would you spend your free time on? would you mindlessly watch tv? spend all your time inside your room?

You don't ruin your life on a single day, you do it day after day walking to your own destruction step by step, if you only ever look at your feet you don't see what you're walking toward and when you look up for the first time it will be an ugly sight, don't worry, the longer you look at it the prettier it gets.

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I hate my neighbors, I mean strongly the dad is a violent drug dealer which isn’t too out of it for my area but I have to listen to him yell at people over the phone, when people come round kicking off I have to listen to that, the police knock on and I have to say didn’t hear anything – then they’ve crammed 5 kids into a two bedroom house so they spend most of their time in the back garden making a ton of noise – Most recently one of the younger lads has gotten into footie. More specifically booting a football against a metal shed repeatedly.

Then today he comes out into the backgarden in full kit, his mam walks out smoking a cig and proceeds to keep kicking the ball back and forth to him and the lads having the time of his life – it was an honest childhood moment. This made me stop and think if I had anything like that, my first thought was no but as I’ve spent 5 minutes trying to recount positive childhood memories I’ve managed to come up with dozens; but I had to put effort into doing so, negative childhood memories I could remember chronologically without even a thought.

I guess we by default focus more on the negative, I didn’t have a bad childhood and i don’t think I’d ever claim I did but if you would have asked me I would have described it as ‘fine’ but now after remembering all these “forgotten” memories I would say I had a good childhood, with parents who cared deeply about me, it’s changed my perspective on my childhood – I wonder how long these positive memories will remain fresh? how many more could I recount?

maybe things aren’t that bad maybe my brain just hates me and wants me to remember the bad and forget the good.

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