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👥The flaws in comparing yourself to others and to yourself.

2 minutes

Disclaimer: None of these thoughts are original they've almost certainly been thought before and explained in a better way. If you're aware of a case of this please email it me so I can link to it here.

Success is a matter of three things, 'Talent', hard work, and 'luck' - Talent is mostly genetic, You also need an environment that fosters and nurtures your natural talent, these things can be considered 'luck' You could also discredit hard work in a similar fashion if you're a determinist but that's beside the point.

Comparing yourself to others isn't fair to yourself because you can't possibly compare the two, Because no two people have the same starting conditions, the same environmental conditions and the same level of luck. So why would you ever compare yourself to others? because society encourages it, because it can be a quick form of relief 'Things might be bad but it could be worse I could be x' But since you can't accurately put yourself down by comparing you to others, elevating yourself by comparing yourself to others also isn't fair, it's just a biased way to elevate your own ego. inflating your ego by comparing yourself to others is a trap, You get cut by it more than you're inflated, then your inflated ego is based on bias not reality, and the comparisons that tear you down are also controlled by bias.

Now lets talk about the shaky foundation of comparing yourself to yourself, progress isn't linear and regression should be expected in any for of long term progress, there will always be growing pains, hiccups, issues that come up.

The point of this is to say don't build your sense of self worth on things that're unfair like comparing yourself to others or others to you, or to allow any kind of stalling or step backs in progress make you feel bad about yourself. those comparisons aren't fair and neither is seeing any regressions in your progress as failure.

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👅Lysergic acid diethylamide

Disclaimer: This is not a trip report but a collection of experiences from my drug use split into catagories.

9 minutes

Table of contents:
Microdosing
Insights
Time distortion
Death
Something inside the mirror
Demons everywhere
Puking


I've done acid around 50(+/-5) times (excluding microdosing) the average dose was 200ug, the highest being 600ug, because of the tolerence of acid you can take it once every 2 weeks or you can do the following week1 - 200ug, week2 - 200ug, week3 - 300ug, week4 - skip week one you get full dose, week two it's more like 150ug, week three it's like a low quality 100ug tab. This system is also very cost effective since a tab costs a couple quid and you don't drink at all or nearly as much on a night out. However Having done this dosing for a few months it starts to make you weird, it's hard to fully articulate but even when the drugs are out of your system something remains and you just feel off. Before large doses you should take a 2 week tolerence break.

Microdosing:
It's worth noting some research shows if your first exposure to LSD is under 100ug it could influence later trips giving you a greater deal of control over it (early psychitrict researchers claim this could lower the theraputical benefit of LSD) microdosing has very little well controlled research behind it, maybe it helps with focus, creativity and mood, maybe it's just a placebo - but one thing you'll find when researching microdosing is it's almost all anecdotal and unverifiable. I will follow this trend, services like brainlabs allow you to test brain performance, anyone with two braincells to rub together could come up with a placebo controlled design and actually do some testing.

Over my time microdosing I did notice improvements to my productivity, increased focus and I enjoyed doing tasks more. My overall mood and outlook remained the same, but I think microdosing is overrated generally, though I do think it has value, you get insights into yourself over time. Similar to macrodosing except the insights are slow drips over time instead of getting hosed down for 6-12 hours. In the long term I'm reluctant to rely on any chemicals that barely exist outside of anecdotes.

Insights:
Insights and drugs are a very interesting thing to talk about, especially to other drug users since it almost instantly will make your beliefs about the drug(s) clear, for example if you talk about insights as if someone or something gave you the insights it becomes clear you attach some form of spiritual belief to it, however if you claim the insights are something you take the substance clearly doesn't have as much (if any) spiritual value to you.

I fall into the latter, I believe drugs are just chemicals that you can draw from whatever you want, I think the insights you draw are as valuble as you decide, similar to dream analysis - the issue is however, when on drugs you're not capable of accurate assessment, when sober your biases will control your insights so apply a healthy level of skepticism.

The insights I gained are pretty basic, watching my hands wither away into frail, weak and old hands gave me the insight I should take better care of my health; another one I got is the dawning realization that I could be a lot stronger and a lot more capable than I was, reaching your peak is almost impossible, and when you do, when the decline sets in you should continue on to fight against it. Eating on acid lead to me eating healthier as well because it's really fucking weird that people choose to guzzle down an artificial, sugary liquid knowing it will damage their health, when it'd be cheaper, quicker and easier to just fill up a bottle with tap water - this lead to me drinking fizzy drinks only on weekend, however now I've not drank anything other than water for about a year (excluding a couple green teas 2-3 times a week). However I think the insights LSD offers you can be gained from either dream analysis or just straight up self reflection.

Time distortion:
Time distortion outisde of the regular experiance only happened once, smaller more 'normal' distortions like having close eyed or open eyed visuals that feel like they last days when they last minutes things like that aren't worth talking about because even people without drug experiance can relate to it and have experianced it.

The one experiance that sticks out to me as outside of normal concious experiance is some sort of perceptual time travel, I was sat in my room and decided to make a sandwhich since I was hungry, I was then eating the sandwhich, then I was walking downstairs to make the sandwhich then walking upstairs with the sandwhich then walking downstairs with the eaten sandwhich - truthfully I can't really add much to this because it's very difficult to comprehend. The only explenation I've come up with is similar to deja vu, I did all the actions, forgot I did, then something in my environment triggered the memories and I remembered them in a different chronology all at once giving me the confusing perception the event happened out of order.

Death:
The first time you watch yourself die is a very weird thing death on acid is nothing like near death IRL.1

My first experiance with acid death I was lying on my bed on 600ug, everything was fine then everything faded around me and I'm watching myself from a third person perspective2 then time begins to speed up and up, I'm watching everything decay around myself soon my room is decrepid, then my house, soon my bed is gone, rotted away, then the floor, then the floor underneath, I'm laying on the dirt, grass begins to grow, I can feel it on my skin between my fingers, when it rains i feel it hit my face, on nice days I feel the sun on my face. A rivers begun forming beneath me, some days it gets quite cold on my back. Then I notice and the fear sets in, the tips of my fingers are dissolving into the river, a rainbow worth of colors is going downstream along with my finger tips, am I dying? Will my parents know I've died? Do my parents even exist anymore? I begin fighting it, I don't want to die, What happens after this? the panic gets worse and worse, no matter how much I fight I continue dissolving just slower, but no matter what I do I'll be nothing. Why go out in a paniced state? I decide to just accept it, I can't change the outcome so lets just let it happen and see where I end up, it felt like I'd been fighting it for an enternaty anyway. I begin dissolving quicker but this time with a sense of calm, What I am isn't my physical form, it's the actions I did with that physical form, once it's rotted away and stopped existing the thing I did will continue on, my memories, my body, my conciousness none of it matters, none of it is me all I am and will ever be is the impact I had on others, I think this was my first experiance of ego death3

The second time I died on acid was much more mundane - I was wandering a desert again watching myself from a third person perspective like some sort of god, The sand felt nice, but I was so hungry, so thirsty, it felt like my insides were burning soon after i watched myself collapse, i was so hungry then i could no longer move, no longer feel my body. I had died, then i snap back to reality and realize I'd spent close to an hour starring at my floorboards, i remember I'm on acid and i remember i was starring at the floorboards and running my fingers along them, the sand color of the floorboards must be why I was in a desert.

those two memories of acid death display the contrast, with some being profound and others being fun party anecdotes. There are more memories but they contain more private events from my life.

Something inside the mirror:
Looking into the mirror can be both interesting and overwhelming, you watch your face melt, distort, shift. You're first experiance with this might be strange, you come to the realisation that just because you see something doesn't mean it exists, mirrors can also force introspection, what do I actually think about my appearance? What does my body and form say about me? things of that nature, I used to enjoy glancing in the mirror when pissing since the sight of me, sweating, baggy hoodie, unkempt facial hair, hunched over, not breaking eye contact with myself as I walk to the toilet was always a sight ot behold.

Demons everywhere:
You might also have bad experiances, I believe when you have your first bad trip you're faced with three choices (1) Stop tripping altogether (2) figure out why the bad trip happens, what it means and work through it (3) continue taking acid and embrace the bad trips, eventually they go away - a recurring bad experiance I had was with arms reaching out of the floor to grab me, things inside the walls screaming, things watching me in the woods, this went on for a while, every trip they would appear in one form so long as I took a high enough dose for overwhelming visuals.

Puking:
In my experiance puking on acid is never fun, but I also think it's unavoidable, take acid enough and you'll puke, my first time puking on acid was at the peak of a 300ug trip (liquid) my drug addled brain decided to puke in the sink instead of the toilet, once the sink was filled I moved onto the toilet - I spent around and hour puking, by the end it was a mixture of blood and bile, I struggled to eat for the next following days, the rest of my trip was centered around my drug consumption and why I was even doing drugs in the first place, the weekend after I decided to take some nbome4 since I forgot where I'd put my vial.


  1. It's worth noting I've overdosed on drugs before and in some cases needed emergancy attention, I've never died but I have needed resusitation and have spent mornings semi concious puking blood violently (this is my point of comparison)  

  2. One thing I've noticed some struggle to understand is even though you know you've taken drugs, even though drug experiances might be so far disconnected from the normal experiance you often forget you're on drugs or don't comprehend what you're seeing/experiancing isn't real. 

  3. Ego death is a "complete loss of subjective self-identity". (Read more

  4. 25I-NBOMe is an imitation often passed off as acid, you can test to identify if you have acid or this wikipedia 

📰Big tech fines, Teaching ethics lead to more vegans, TOR exit node attack

Good News
Instagram facing huge fines

  • Alleged Instagram using facial recognition violates a state law
  • Could hypothetically be half a trillion dollar fine
  • Instagram states it uses facial recognition to build DBs of users but it also does it to people who don't have insta accounts and didn't agree to the ToS
  • "This suit is baseless. Instagram doesn't use Face Recognition technology," Otway said. (this will later proven to be false, screencap this)
  • Please please please whichever person is in charge of this take a cool half trilly off instagram

Apple facing fines

  • Apple violated patents for LTE tech
  • “Lawsuits like this by companies who accumulate patents simply to harass the industry only serve to stifle innovation and harm consumers,”
    • Apple unironically said this, they unironically shit talked people for harming the tech industry and consumers
    • Apple used harming consumers as an insult against another company
  • "As it stands, Apple will have to pay at least a sum of $506.2 million to Optis Wireless and its related companies." a thorn in the side to a company that deserves a sword through the heart

Facebook facing back taxes

  • Facebook has agreed to pay more than 100 milly in back taxes

Studying ethics leads to more vegans
Title says it all, if you force people to discuss the ethics and morals of eating meat less people will eat meat, because paying to have animals raped and killed completely unnecessarily is a difficult thing to defend.

  • The experiment was conducted with 1,332 UC Riverside students across four different introductory philosophy courses.
  • the sections focused either on the ethics of charity (the control group) or the ethics of eating meat (the treatment group)
  • students in the meat ethics sections likelier to say they thought eating factory-farmed meat is unethical
  • Fifty-two percent of dining card purchases for both the control and treatment groups were of meat products before the class. After the class, the treatment group’s percentage fell to 45 percent.
  • This effect wasn’t driven by a few students becoming vegetarians, but by all students buying slightly less meat.

Bad News

Tor Exit node attack

  • A group that at one point controlled 23% (now closer to 10%) of all TOR exit nodes was running SSL stripping attacks

💳Outdated banks, natwest to revolut

7 minutes

Late last year I decided to ditch google as much as possible, now I just use youtube and solve the occasional captcha. I installed grapheneOS with no Gapps or services, there was some growing pain, but you can get by pretty well, some apps will claim to be GSF dependant but run fine without, other apps will pop up when you launch them saying they won't run without google play services but then you hit ok and they run fine, some like uber you have to use through the website or webapp and it's still comfortable to use - then you have natwest, the app launches fine, you can log into your online banking fine through the app but then the second you try to load your account it closes, So I decided to just use the mobile site, how bad can it be? very.

Each time you want to check you balance you're forced to enter number x y z of your pin then characters f g h of your password, ok fine I get it better safe than sorry, but then you also need to wait for a text message and type in the 6 digit code, every single time you want to so much as check your balance, then if you want to make a single payment to a previously set up contact you have to tick several warning boxes, If you're currently thinking 'oh well it's good natwest is secure' I would argue 90% of it is pure security theatre [1] that only serves to make user experience worse, the first step of knowing someones password and pin should be enough assuming it isn't the phone number verification (lmao) [2] [3] [4] should stop most attacks, but the scam checks (tick this box to show you understand maybe you're getting scammed) and the need for a card reader to send transactions to new people or in some cases transactions larger than £50 offers no real protection, if someone is getting scammed do you really think a tick box that says hey maybe you're being scammed will offer much help? as far as the card reader that does offer some practical security but if you're on a night out trying to lend a mate some dosh so he can uber down and it pulls that shit you now can't even access your own fucking money. Finally the justification for not working without google play services.

due to security. :(

A vague answer that even a complaint didn't yield any fruit, no one I've spoken to at natwest can explain how google services enhances security for their app specifically, or even at all, but it becomes more interesting because it isn't that the app needs google play services it's that natwest don't want the app running on devices without google services, on my old device they did a similar thing with rooted devices but thanks to magisks hide root feature you could still use it on rooted devices - at the time I reached out through support and their reasoning for not allowing root users was much more justifiable, rooting a device increases the attack surface and makes the device harder to secure for less tech savvy users [Read this if rooted] But yet they don't allow devices that don't have google services i.e a bunch of code that their app doesn't require to function, a better way of describing making end users have code unnecessarily on their device? forcing users to increase the attack surface of their device, whilst also telling them it increases their security. I'm not sure what the root cause of this hypocrisy is, my guess would be the app has too many developers that don't communicate enough leading to contradictions in their approach to security - either way the amount of hoops I had to jump through, the fact I might not be able to send money unless I carry around a fucking card reader, the fact that every time I want to do anything they make me tick boxes designed to help out of touch boomers made me want to start looking for an alternative bank that takes security properly.

Online only banks such as revolut had an instant appeal, since they're tech first, it's worth mentioning first I use the paid plan £7 a month, but for me this fee is worth it, they also have free plans.
I'm going to highlight both the pros and cons

Pros:

  • Doesn't force you to increase your attack surface
  • Allows you to authenticate on the app via fingerprint
  • Nicer UI/UX
  • Allows stock trading inside the app
  • Allows you to generate virtual cards
  • Allows you to generate disposable cards (details change after each use)
  • You can disable features you don't use per card (Contactless, Online Transactions, Swipe payments, ATM Withdrawals, Location security)
  • Limit spending per card
  • Widget allowing recurring donations to charities
  • Good budgeting system in the app

Cons:

  • Cannot transfer BTC only buy/sell (worthless)
  • Cannot add custom charities to the charity widget

These pros lead to insane benefits to overall security, You can segregate cards based on use cases then limit them for that use, I use a virtual card for entertainment bills (spotify, plex, netflix) I know how much those services cost so that's all that card can spend per month, lets assume this virtual card does get got, the damage is incredibly limited and I can delete the card from the app, make a new one and I only have to set that new card up on three services instead of getting a new card and having to add a new card to all your accounts - I also further split my virtual cards into server fees, amazon+paypal, then for one off sites I use the disposable card. One little pro I like is it shows pictures alongside transactions, at a glace you see shit like amazon, spotify etc.

The security benefits also push over to physical cards as well, if I'm going on a night out or somewhere with erratic behaviour or events I lock down the card just through the app, set a spending limit, disable contactless (I also keep online transactions off all the time), then disable swipe payments - for that card to be compromised I would not only have to lose it but also have to disclose the pin to the person that found it and at most all that person could do is spend to my limit (I set it at around £50) and the second I can't find my card I go on the app, freeze the card then if I don't find it within a few days I terminate it and order a new one.

The budgeting system is also pretty great it can automatically categorise transactions or you can setup custom categories, you can apply budgets on a monthly basis, per category and overall, it provides spending habits in nice graphs offering good insight into your spending, it also breaks down spending into % you can see out of all money what percentage you spend on what, really gets your gambling 'habit' in check pretty quickly.

A final note I think is worth mentioning is the charity widget, I think any use of technology that makes good actions easier is worth some level of focus, The widget works as follows you go to the widget within the app, it lists charities and their purpose.

  • Rainforest Alliance: Save our rainforests
  • British Red Cross: Help Beirut rebuild
  • WWF: Protect the natural world
  • Movember: Change the face of mens health
  • Cancer research UK: Beat cancer together
  • ILGA-Europe: Push for LGBTQI+ equality
  • Medecins sans frontieres: Help fight COVID-19
  • Save the children: Help the most vulnerable
  • The Trussell Trust: Support COVID-19 food bank appeal
  • UN Refugee agency: Give refugees hope

You can click on any and get a more explained goal/current goal of the charity from that screen you can also easily setup recurring donation or a "Spare change" donation meaning each time you make a transaction it's rounded up to the nearest pound and the excess is given to charity, this spare change feature can also be used to save money in your 'vault'

To summarize companies should allow you freedom to configure your device as you wish or be replaced by a company that will.

🌲Consolations of the forest, Sylvain Tesson

1 minute

this books about nature and isolation, shite like that. bloke goes to live in some cabin in the woods, the book is apparently his journals from that time however I think it's clear he intended to publish or distribute the journals from the start because all the writing comes across as grandiose, He also romanticises the woods way too much, maybe it'll get better.

jesus christ it only gets worse it becomes more and more clear that the writer intends to publish or distribute making the entire thing seem incredibly inauthentic.

Im not finishing the book, i refuse to be tricked into reading this entire piece of shit on the probable lie that maybe itll get better I feel disgusted by the way the reviewers all concocted this grand conspiracy to lie to me about this book

0/5

📊Productivity

12 minutes

Why productivity matters

To start off with I’d like to talk a little about why productivity matters, If you can improve how productive you are you can take systematic and effective approaches to things that matter to you, this could be work, getting good at video games, learning a new language or something along those lines, I’m defining productivity as a way to increase either overall output , decreases time it takes to reach the desired output, increases quality of the output or a combination of the three. it’s also worth mentioning if something lowers the quality of output below your baseline I consider it worthless - one popular example is adderall it increases how much you output but lowers the quality of the output.

To break down a little why I began to care about productivity it’s because I “work” from home though I use that word loosely if you’ve worked a job that isn’t a 9-5 it’s very hard to ensure you don’t just leave everything till the last minute then make something shitty leading to bad reviews, though if you’re interested in freelancing I’m not a good resource to that, I make under 12k per year and mostly live off money I made on crypto, I don’t want it to seem that I’m rich since I’m not truthfully I just don’t spend much money, most of my big purchases I’ve saved up for instead of buying from my savings or I’ve won a decent chunk gambling and splurged. Back to productivity, if you focus on improving how productive you are you can start to modify your behaviour so you can spend less time for the same output without losing quality, or you can spend the same amount of time for a better quality output, anything you hope to learn, any time you hope to spend can be better spent if you keep productivity in mind, a fairly common anecdote that you might be able to relate to is taking a break from video games - when you come back to them you perform better and enjoy yourself more, then over time it diminishes, if you track certain metrics, for this example it’d be basic, time spent playing, k/d, enjoyment/10 you might find if you play video games for 1 hour less per day you enjoy yourself more and do better, now not only are you performing better at games, you’re enjoying playing them more AND you have an hour of reclaimed time.

Productivity expands just beyond work, it effects everything you invest time in.

Accountability

Accountability is the most important thing when it comes to productivity, to keep yourself accountable you should set goals with defined due dates and track exactly how much time you’re spending on each project so you can decide is it worth it, tons of time trackers exist however I’ve only used one so it’s the only one I’ll namedrop “timecop” it’s opensource, local only and allows you to export to CVS which is a must have feature, most apps allow exports to CVS files which means you can overlay one apps data with anothers and see if theres any pattern.

As far as task tracking and management goes I’d personally recommend tasks and nextcloud deck they integrate nicely into nextcloud so they’re accessible on all your devices, I also have an NFC tag I tap my phone on in the morning which tells me all my upcoming and in progress tasks - I’ll cover that more specifically later. if I may self shill for a second I wrote a blogpost about why you should have a nextcloud server that’s linked in the shownotes.

Distractions

This section is all about how you can limit distractions, it’ll be focused mostly on technology use and my personal tricks I’ve learnt overtime, so firstly you obviously need to know what’s distracting to you, and what distractions can you overcome, for me my biggest time sinks were youtube, I’d start listing to it then end up binge watching, a easy way to overcome this was to use my phone for music, I connect bluetooth earbuds to my phone and put my computer headphones in a drawer, this way when the urge to watch just one video arrives I’d have to go get the headphones, plug them in, by the time I’ve even started to do that I’ve realized either it won’t stop after one video or all this effort isn’t worth one video, with most of my timesinks being media related the headphone trick alone is enough to stop most of them by just making them more inconvenient, ones I used to use but no longer do was to turn off notifications for social media apps during “productive” hours since anyone who needs me urgently will have my phone number, everything else can wait, this way you don’t even see the notifications, you can hide them from your lockscreen on android and probably on iphone, it’s much easier to avoid a temptation if it isn’t one easy click away or a flashing light in the corner of your eye, though I don’t have social media anymore so that’s easier, I do socialize a little via signal and email but I only check email in the morning and mid afternoon, in regards to signal I only message a handful of people on that and since they’re my close friends I’m comfortable with not replying instantly if it’s inconvenient, I’ve also heard turning your phone and computer to greyscale helps limit the dopamine hits from colorful sites and software which may decrease the enjoyment of using them and limit temptation that way, I’ve found it to hold true but I only use it after 7pm just to avoid overstimulation before bed moreso than to limit distractions.

Metrics

Now is when we dive into what data you should track and how to use it to improve certain things, and if stats and numbers isn’t your thing passive pattern recognition is still useful, even without ‘crunching the numbers’ you’ll notice on days where you do something different it has an effect on something else. First I’m going to list all the metrics I track

  1. Sleep quality (lenovo watch x)
  2. Habits (loops habit tracker)
  3. Exercise, inc. type
  4. Meditation (meditation assistant)
  5. Brain
    • Cognition
    • Memory
    • Verbal fluency
    • Reasoning Skills
  6. Time spent on projects (Timecop)
  7. Subjective (Track and graph)
    • anxiety
    • stress
    • quality of output
    • quantity of output

Your brain is dogshit and mostly useless, thats why you should rely upon third party tools, a great test of your memory is something you can do pretty easily using your phone right now, get up the audio recorder, recount something that happened to you today, a nice memory or something, save the file, wait a month then tell the same story and compare the two, you’ll notice how details have changed, how you felt has changed so recording things in a more permanant unchaging way now, as far as active vs passive pattern recognition, in passive you feel like you got more work done on days when you exercised, with active you *know* you got more work done on days when you exercised because you tracked that data for weeks and isolated it by ruling out other factors that might’ve effected the extra work. To bring a more personal example step by step to hopefully show this I had that exact scenario at the time I was tracking perceived quantity of output, exercise, diet and sleep, all obviously play a part on the quantity of work but how should I prioritise and balance the three? obviously when all three were good output was at it’s highest so I ‘randomly’ threw in occasional days without exercise, without sufficient sleep or food, then I did three consecutive days, three days without sufficient sleep, then three days without exercise, then three without a good diet, obviously not all in a row but after I’d done it I found that if it’s a one off day my prioritisation should be 1. exercise 2. sleep 3. food, but if it’s longer periods (3 days+) sleep is the most important, followed by food then exercise. You might not find the same pattern but you might find one, an anecdotal example of passive pattern recognition was switching my morning green tea to 10am-ish instead of 7am helps my overall output, but I never bothered to confirm this since I have no intention of not compulsively chugging green tea and agave nectar. so there wouldn’t be much point however from passively noticing that pattern I’m confident if I just avoided that first morning cup until 10am it’d have a positive effect.

Automation & Apps

This part will hopefully be short and sweet, in terms of apps to automate things two for me that stick out are Tasker and BuzzKill, both cost money but both I consider to be worth it, covering my productivity related tasker configs on the side of my desk are four NFC tags (rectangular) each on electrical tape with markings next to it, cardio, mas, medit, list - I tap my phone on them then tasker kicks in, the first three check off habits in the loops habit tracker app, then it makes a sound, this is to confirm the tag got read and triggered correctly - the final tag ‘list’ is used for the tasks app I use, I tap it and it sends a notification showing any overdue or upcoming tasks in chronological order, so once my day gets started all I have to do is tap my phone and I know what’s on the days agenda, though obviously some things are in my calender, and some things are in desk, since tasks sends you a notification for each task when they become ‘active’ the list serves more of a quick overview. task also syncs with a nextcloud app nicely, another reason to get nextcloud - My BuzzKill setup is much more basic, if I get a notification containing the word “urgent” turn off do not disturb, If I get a signal message turn that conversation silent for 90s this is to deal with when you get multiple messages over a short period instead of the phone going off five times it goes off once, You could also use it so that specific apps, lets say signal and phone calls turn off do not disturb and nothing else does to keep the social media notifications out of sight and out of mind, then just turn that rule on/off as needed - some further apps worth consideration are audio recorder for quick and easy “notes”, joplin for notes that’re more detailed it syncs to nextcloud, offers E2EE, has desktop clients, can add photos, audio, location data to notes making it pretty useful, I often take a quick voice note in audio recorder, hit share, share it with joplin then type it up later (or if I don't care about preserving the audio note I use the note to self feature in signal, which auto wipes in one week), it (joplin) also has nice export to PDF or html options, Next up is Deck, deck is basically a nextcloud trello clone, great for programmers, or anyone looking for post-it style project management. It makes it easy to breakdown and tag projects and parts of projects into manageable chunks, with due dates or if you have multiple users on your nextcloud instance you can assign certain 'cards' to other users an honourable mention is Noice, noice is just a background noise generator, some people like them some don’t, I’ve used it but don’t use it, I vary between lofi hip hop and taylor swift, mostly the older albums pre 2014, with some exceptions from reputation and a couple from the lover album.

Changes I’ve made

On standard notes

Since beginning writing this I've moved from joplin to standard notes, the feature set is around the same, however standard notes has an edge on security - Self hosting is a pain so I use a paid plan, It only allows export to txt file but since it has a markdown editor (and html based editor) it's easy to convert to html or pdf if you wanted -- The main reason I switched was a better mobile experience and it has options to make spreadsheets, I still stand by joplin as a solid note taking option and still use it just as a secondary option.

Due dates

Setting deadlines is obviously helpful for keeping on track, instead of just having a todo list, set up tasks in the tasks app and have it notify you when you need to do it, check it when you wake up so everything you need to do is fresh in your mind.

Smaller Chunks

If a project seems daunting, breaking it up into more manageable and approachable chunks (using desk or tasks) can help you seem less overwhelmed and since there are more steps you get a much more consistent and motivating sense of progress, instead of feeling like you complete one step toward it per week or whatever you'll be taking multiple smaller steps, helping to build consistency.

Juggling multiple projects

another small but helpful thing that's improved my overall productivity is juggling multiple projects, I struggle with burnout very easily, especially with personal projects so once I feel burnout I swap to another project, or I switch up on a regular basis so I'm making consistent progress on them all without burning out on any.

News

The final anecdotal change I'll mention is how I approach the news, I used to read the news a lot, sometimes just headlines sometimes full articles - now my approach is different one because I have a "podcast" reading some news (News from the aether) and two because I realized the news was lowering my mood and making me less motivated and mostly unnecessarily, 90% of the news I read had no bearing or relevance to my life but it still lowered my mood, so my new approach to news is as follows, I have an RSS reader setup on nextcloud this has huge amounts of news coming into it, I scroll through a couple times a day glancing through headlines, if an article seems interesting or relevant to my life I share it to wallabag (which then pulls that content in a nice unified way and gives them estimated reading times) I apply one of two tags to the article when sharing, 'kobo' or 'newscast' items with the kobo tag get sent to my ereader which is much more comfortable to read on and I read through them all every sunday morning/afternoon - the newscast items are for the news podcast (aether.exposed/links/) which from the third episode forward will be read through on a saturday with a rough script written then recorded and set to publish on the sunday.

❤️Read this if you have 5 bathrooms

I appreciate you buddy

🤝Trust - How much does it matter?

6 minutes

Today I want to explain why I think trust is over-rated in personal relationships, this includes friendships and to an extent romantic relationships, I think if someones trustful or not doesn’t matter, the thing that matters is if you know if they’re trustworthy or not, to what extent you can trust them and what can you trust them with, first we should break down the different types of trust, from most common to least common.


Hollow Trust:
Hollow Trust is probably the most common but also the simplest form of trust, it’s a platitude with no substance, it’s hollow and carries no weight it’s a claim you can trust them but they’ve never considered what it entails and they won’t consider the fact you trusted them before the trust is betrayed. it’s a hollow statement.

Conditional Trust:
Now conditional trust is the second most common; but is most certainly the easiest to identify especially among friends, First let me define what I mean by conditional trust, it’s fairly self explanatory but since this topic is important to me I’ll be overly clear to avoid any potential confusion. Conditional trust is trust that has a valid or invalid state then a condition that switches the state between the two, a great example of this is in most friendships, it’s a very common condition so it’s an easy one to explore and expose, The most common condition I have come across is friendship i.e so long as we’re friends you can trust me, this becomes obvious when you consider they will happily tell you secrets about their old friends, it’s also common in sexual relationships this comes through as telling you intimate secrets about their ex, now if they’re ex was abusive or something obviously you being told that isn’t a betrayal of trust however being told embarrassing secrets about their ex shows their trust is conditional, as with friends the common condition being maintaining your relationship with them, now in both you actually have very little control over keeping the relationships in a good state, friends can turn on you for no reason, sexual relationships can deteriorate past your control This is why conditional trust carries so much risk, the condition is usually outside of your control so the lifespan of that trust can’t be known, maybe you can trust them for a day, maybe a week maybe your entire life, but since the condition is outside of your control the trust cannot be predicted, you don’t know when the trust will become void. it’s also worth listing off some common conditions I’ve also noticed again the most common I’ve encountered is maintaining the relationship, others would be

  • Trust becomes void for personal benefit
  • Trust becomes void for social benefit
  • Trust becomes void for your benefit

Moral Trust:
Now moral trust is a bit harder to come to a conclusion on but I think it can be the most valuable form of trust for you to apply to others and for others to apply to you, moral trust is similar to conditional trust but the only condition will only ever be morality, if they believe you’re doing something immoral they will break the trust but outside of that they can be trusted, now ask yourself are you trustworthy? if so then you should be able to trust anyone whos morals align with your own since You’d never do anything you consider immoral and if you did you’d be so ashamed you wouldn’t tell anyone anyway, now when it comes to figuring out someones morals we should apply a similar logic to what we did with conditional trust, ignore what they say and focus on their actions, I’ve never heard anyone openly admit they’re a bad person with no morals, I have however witnessed people who claim to be good people act evilly. I know anecdotes aren’t ideal but I’m trying to be vague enough with them that you can think of a similar thing that happened to you. So the main distinction between conditional trust and moral trust is stability, you cannot maintain the condition of trust however once someones moral system is developed it often doesn’t change overnight.

Absolute trust:
At first look absolute trust seems like the ideal type, perfect even however when you dive deeper into it you’ll realize it isn’t one you should want, Absolute trust is trust that is never broken regardless of it, it’s the type of “trust” gang thrive within even if suffering personal consequence such as jail time now absolute trust can only be explored in limited exposure or hypotheticals, again almost all we have is anecdotes and hypotheticals so in anecdotes I’ve met one person who affords absolute trust or at least with limited exposure, unless the trust has been tested then you don’t know if it is absolute, if she was tortured or something extreme I have no doubt she’d betray my trust, as she should. This becomes the major issue with “Absolute trust” it becomes impossible to have a method of verification since it can only be tested with extremes, you can’t distinguish it between conditional trust in which you don’t know the condition, but if you believe it to be absolute you’ll most likely have misplaced faith.


Which circles us back nicely to our central theme, does trust matter? of course, but it’s no where near as important as identifying the type of trust someone offers you, the underlying issue is no one is really trustworthy, they’re trustworthy to an extent and some people to a larger extent but no one completely, So if all trust will be broken given the correct conditions should you trust no one?

My approach to trust is fairly simple, assume peoples trust is hollow until I can figure out if they fall into conditional or moral trust, if I can’t then they remain in hollow trust, I view them as someone to which no trust or privillidged should be afforded, if they fall into conditional then I try to understand the conditions then afford them trust only with things I wouldn’t mind becoming public, if they fall into moral trust I will only ever trust them with things I am certain align with their morals, as far as absolute trust or people who ascribe it to themselves 'you can trust me no matter what, with anything' I consider them the same as those in the hollow trust category because in my experience people who think trust should never be betrayed are usually quite immoral; for example I consider myself to be moral, if all my secrets became public it would be embarrassing but as far as things I’ve done I’m confident I could defend them, because I try to be a good person and act in a way that I’m not forced to hide. However people who act like trust must never be betrayed often have actions or beliefs they wouldn't/couldn't defend or wouldn't stand by.

This seems anti-climatic, all I’ve managed is to break down the types of trust I’ve observed, back it up with anecdotes then explain some system for identification, then my way of dealing with trust…The purpose of this post is to try and convince people to be more cautious of whom they trust, most people aren’t trustworthy but again anecdotally people assume they’re an incredible judge of character, to me claiming you know someones trustworthy when you’ve known them for less than 2 years and have never had a falling out with them seem to me as way too trustworthy, I hope in reading this you reconsider who you trust, reconsider what you trust them with and reconsider how easily you give your trust out.

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📰Twitter should die and quantum computers

Good News

Twitter hit with 250m fine for misuse of phone numbers

  • Twitter uses SMS based 2FA (lmao why?)
  • Twitter then used the phone numbers collected for 2FA for marketing
  • Hopefully then allow proper 2FA methods going forward and people lose trust in twitter

The quest for quantum-proof encryption just made a leap forward

  • Quantum computers could break encryption
  • Lattice-based cryptography [1] [2] is the front runner for post quantum cryptography
  • NSA Spooked by quantum computing
  • NSA is confident in lattice based encryption

China spying bad, US spying fine (TikTok sale to microsoft)

  • China trying to block sale of TikTok to Microsoft
  • If microsoft buys TikTok it won't get banned and will continue to invade privacy of it's mostly underage users

Bad News

OnePlus phones will ship with Facebook services that can’t be removed

  • Oneplus got paid fat stacks to not allow you to remove facebook services but it saves battery life so they're doing you a favor

  • Services will send data even without facebook installed

  • Remember when oneplus used to have cheap phones at good spec then it stopped?

  • Remember when Oneplus used to listen to customers then yeeted the headphone jack anyway

  • Remember when oneplus became a shell of what they once were?

📰TikTok Ban, Bill gates dumb, Twitter

Technology

Big Tech is going on trial

  • Hopefully the tech ceos are publicly beheaded
  • amazon caught lying
  • apples app store should burn in a fire
  • tech companies are usually scum
  • a bunch of boomers talking to tech ceos will change nothing

Addressing the July 2020 e-commerce and marketing data breach -- A Message From Ledger’s Leadership | Ledger

  • Exploit led to leaks of email addresses, name, address and phone numbers
  • Not everyone got address etc leaked, if you did expect a ledger email
  • Either way expect some phishing mail
  • No passwords or payment data just contact details
  • Hardware wallets are fine just a data leak
  • They're monitoring for sale of the DB
  • They're focusing more on the eCommerce platform going forward
  • Use a coldcard unless you're some meme tier crypto daytrader

Two TOR Zero days revealed

  • Researcher revealed two claims to have three more
  • Also claimed to have reported them to TOR but they got ignored
  • Claims he has a zero day that could reveal servers real IP (rip drug markets)
  • issue 01 allows full blocking of TOR by ISPs
  • issue 02 allows blocking of users even when using bridges

Bad News

Bill Gates: with private messaging we can’t “intervene” in removing conspiracies and “misinformation”

  • Dumb idiot bill gates thinks in 2D
  • E2E stops censorship of misinformation
  • Doesn't mention the clear pros of E2E
  • Valid worry facebook will set up a system where they can't moderate content so can't be held responsible
  • Why is bill gates saying dumb stuff?

Climate deniers get twice the news coverage of pro-climate messages, study finds

  • Bad news sells
  • News doesn't care about morals so gives disproportional attention to climate deniers
  • why would news outlets care about misinformation if it sells

Coronavirus: Pet cat found to have virus in UK

  • UK chief veterinary officer Christine Middlemiss said: "This is a very rare event, with infected animals detected to date only showing mild clinical signs and recovering within in a few days.
  • "There is no evidence to suggest that pets directly transmit the virus to humans. We will continue to monitor this situation closely and will update our guidance to pet owners should the situation change."
  • An animal's fur could carry the virus for a time if a pet were to have come into contact with someone who was sick.

Good News

Tiktok will hopefully die soon

  • “As far as TikTok is concerned we’re banning them from the United States,” Trump said aboard Air Force On
  • Hopefully he bans it then moves on to all social media that treats users as less than humans
  • TikTok actually had the balls to say they care about privacy
  • "Banning an app like TikTok, which millions of Americans use to communicate with each other, is a danger to free expression and technologically impractical."[1]
  • Chinese law can compel any domestic company to hand over data it has collected on users.
  • https://www.tiktok.com/legal/privacy-policy

[1] Absolute 10iq take when you're talking about a closed source app that collects incredible amounts of user data unnecessarily, anything that isn't truly private and secure is not just a danger to but a direct attack on free expression, sounds like something a teenager who has no understanding of technology or the implications of spying would say

Apples IOS14 changes will hurt facebook

  • Apple adding privacy related features stops our 500 billion dollar company from making as much money :(
  • "We're still trying to understand what these changes will look like and how they will impact us and the rest of the industry"

Any industry that needs to invade peoples privacy to survive should not just die but it should be killed, apple is still a joke but at least with the latest one they tell facebook gets hit with the punchline

Honourable Mentions

Teenagers life ruined for twitter clout

  • Some absolute lads hacked twitter and showed what a joke it is now they're probably going to rot in a cell
  • Seems they got caught by not correctly anonymizing bitcoin before trying to cash out
  • Even they only wanted clout and money hopefully it will start a greater concern among the general public about these platforms

☁️The most important server you'll ever have.

2 minutes

What kind of dumb idiot doesn’t have a nextcloud server?
I decided to make this post since I’m moving my nextcloud server ‘in house’ because electricity is cheaper than server hosting and because my gambling addiction is really ramping up, cutting costs means I can gamble more so I have more chance of winning money.
 
I used owncloud then nextcloud so I’ve watched it grow from a piece of shit google drive clone into an incredible peace of shit everything clone, the reason it’s the most important server you’ll ever have is because of it’s vast utility.
 
First I’m going to break down my uses for it then expand into uses I think will have bigger appeal.

  • Trello Clone, Easy way to plan and track big projects, can add multiple users
  • Mindmap, Simple way to plan out networks or lumps of Frankenstein code, good for 'visual learners'
  • Tasks, Great task tracker which can be synced to android, allows you to set deadlines, reminders, priority, recurring, subtasks etc.
  • Phone tracking, easy way to keep track of where you've been, allows other people to view location and history in real time if you're going hiking and don't want to die, allows you to log runs for distance speed etc, can export the data android
  • Cookbook, easy way to grab recipes from all over the web and have them formatted into a nice uniform way, also easy for sharing recipes with friends
  • File backup, pretty self explanatory
  • File distribution, can send links to friends, password protected, self expiring
  • Note taking (Joplin), E2EE, private, secure note taking that syncs between all your devices, markdown editor syncs via webdav
  • Zotero Sync
  • Maps (hike planning)
  • News Reader, My system with this is godtier, news reader pulls all news via rss, I scroll through anything I want to read fully I share to wallabag which then syncs to my kobo ereader using wallabako, easy way to only read the news you're interested in over breakfast on a nice e ink display

 
Bigger appeal (go look these up yourself)

  • SMS Sync
  • Calendar
  • Contacts syncing
  • Ebook Reader
  • Password manager
  • Bookmarks Sync
  • Video conversion
  • Collaborative Whiteboard

 
You can also run nextcloud on a raspberry pi, docker, at home or on a vps (a lot of which offer it prepacked) - so if you're looking to dip your toe in servers and lessen your reliance on third parties nextcloud is the way to go.